Lagu bodoh

I have the habit of listening closely to the lyrics whenever I hear a song. Then sometimes I laugh at the absurdity of the lyrics. Like you know, "Now the party don't start till I walk in.." or "She's so lucky, she's a star but she cry cry cry in her lonely heart.." wtf and all that.

But lately, I think Kelly Clarkson's Already Gone is the most wtf, annoying, stupid and irrational song I've heard in a long long time.

You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

Serious aku cakap, if anyone ever tells you this line please show them the finger. There's no such thing as I love you so I'm letting you go. Kalau you really love the person, you won't let go. The thing people say about loving so much until must let go is pure bullshit. It's a cover-up for how they're actually feeling. Remember..show them the finger!

Remember all the tings we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

How do you know you're 'meant to say goodbye'? Kalau meant to say goodbye, baik takyah start the relationship also kan? WTF?!

It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive

Nonsense. Better don't kiss then if "perfect" cannot keep whatever love alive and all that.

Ok..I'm done emo-ing with this song. Seriously, I heard it today morning and the only thing that was stopping me from breaking my car radio was the fact that I'm paying for my car.

Ok thank you bye

Emotions

There's always danger in speaking your mind. There's always danger in letting people know your true feelings and emotions.

It leaves you vulnerable.

I've always admired people who spoke their minds. But even more so, it takes sheer guts to speak your heart out.

Would you tell someone exactly how you feel about them? Would you risk your pride to let someone know you really love them? Would you tell someone you can't live without them, even if you know they don't feel the same?

It takes guts. Something we all lack.

Would you tell your friend off if you feel she is doing something wrong? Would you tell your boss that you're tired of the workload?

Risky kan?

Telling it as it is has it risks.

But, rather than keeping it all bottled up inside..speaking your heart is a much better option.

And here's something from my personal favourite, Barrack Obama..

"You will be tested. You won't always succeed. But know that you have it within your power to try."

Afterall, don't we have the confidence to tell the truth?

Random happy pictures :-

My colleague's son is eight and he's prolly the only person in this world with the same wavelenght as me. =)

THZ lovingly baked cookies to celebrate the upcoming Chinese New Year and Valentines Day =)

Officially my favourite tshirt now. Really kena with my personality =)

Ok thank you please come again.

Cheryl goes travelling or somthing like that

Name: Cheryl Fernando
Destination: Bandung, Indonesia
Objective: Shopping spreeeeeee!

Warning - Super long post ahead!

Day 1

I am not really a traveler. I'm a shopper. Yes, I can tell you exactly what is in Topshop and Forever 21, because I'm a shopper. But when my colleague invited me to go to Bandung, Indonesia with her and a few others, I jumped at the offer! The only reason I did so was because Bandung has the most awesomefawesome factory outlets. This means, Zara shorts for RM14 and Marc Jacobs tops for RM30. I kid you not.

So, our flight was scheduled for 3pm and my dad helped me to pack my hand luggage. Yes, this 24-year-old needed her dad to pack her contact lenses solution into a transparent plastic, because you know how you have to abide by some wtf airport rules or whatsoever.

Anyhow...

The flight was delayed! We sat in the airport for what seemed like hours when they finally announced our flight and I was more than happy to sit in the minibus..sorry..airasia. =p

Tired, lethargic and having only eaten some instant noodle in the airplane, I was more than happy to finally reach Bandung at 8pm.

We took a taxi to our hotel and because there were seven of us, we took two taxis. The taxi driver agreed that it would cost us 35,000 rupiah (apprx. RM10) but but but, when we reached our destination..I gave him 50,000 rupiah and he insisted he had no change and wanted to keep the change! WTF? You keep the change when we tell you to keep the changelah kawan! I was very annoyed and what we did was to wait for the other taxi to come and we gave them 70,000 ruppiah. Aih.

To make matters even worst, it was raining and raining and there was no sign of the rain ever stopping.

We settled in our hotel rooms and I was forced by my colleague's son to watch Fairly Odd Parents and Spongebob Squarepants. BTW, Patrick from Spongebob Squarepants is really stupid. He managed to convince the whole town that the butterfly was a monster. Pfft.

Tengok TV sampai terbaring. So cute!

We then settled for some nasi goreng hangus at the hotel and I went to sleep with Spongebob in my head.

DAY 2 - Bandung, Indonesia

We woke up early to have breakfast at the hotel and start our shopping spree. I actually printed out a directory of all the factory outlets in Bandung and we planned and strategised our game plan perfectly.

Before breakfast, I booked two taxis for 9.30am and we had some wtf awful breakfast at the hotel.

We were waiting at the reception at sharp 9.30am and when I asked the receptionist where was the taxi, he gave me the weirdest look and told me it was only 8.30am!

WTF?! How could I have not known that the time in Bandung is one hour later than ours!! So, with nearly an hour to kill, we walked around the hotel area.

Shopping malls were gorgeous and big and so beautiful. But since it was only 8.30 am, nothing was opened.

Camwhore wajib =)

Then, we started shopping. I cannot even begin to describe how awesome was the factory outlets. Marc Jacobs! Zara! MNG! Guess?! Levis! You name it! And yes, I did buy a Zara shorts for RM14. It's RM89 here. =)

This picture here..nevermind..

I loved the statues there and it seemed like every shopping mall, every hotel and every place we visited was adorned with gorgeous statues like this! I like =)

Okay, the only downside was this.

EVERYWHERE we went, we were followed by men trying to sell us stuff. It was soooo annoying! They would literally wait for us outside the shops and practically force stuff into your hands. I refused to even look at them and walked straight with my eyes fixed on the ground.

It was really starting to annoy me. But, I couldn't let a few street merchants ruin my shopping spree kan?

And and and, here was where the real great deals were! As we entered the shops, we were gasping and "Omgs" filled the air. It was really dirt cheap.

Don't be fooled by the wtf statues out there. The deals were really good.

But, my "omg" mood was dampened by the number of beggars and street merchants there. It reached to a point where I was actually very scared. We were standing there with four beggars tugging our arms and asking for money. While I take pride in helping the poor, I also understand that once you give one beggar, a whole battalion will follow you.

Severely harassed, we ran to a nearby shopping mall. We didn't want to ever go out again because..it was scary. Perhaps, I was not used to situations where vendors would actually follow you from shop to shop, forcing you to buy their inferior quality goods. Uggh. Cannot tahan lah.

And then it started raining. So, we started walking really fast to go from the shopping mall into a transportation called the 'Angkut'. As we were walking/running, children with umbrellas approached us..offering to shelter us in exchange for cash. We ran in the rain. No umbrellas please lah.

We entered the 'Angkut' and told the driver our destination. He said okay. As we were travelling, all squeezed up in a van made for seven but with 12 people in it, suddenly, this young man comes and starts playing a guitar and singing in the most sengau voice. We refused to look at him because we knew he wanted money. He left when we started talking loudly.

Ten minutes later, it happened again!!! A little girl comes in..with a guitar in hand..but she started singing in the most awesomefawesome voice. We were shocked and looked for some change to give her. The moment we gave her the money, she stopped singing and ran away. WTF lah weh?!

And and and, to add salt to my already very sore wound, the driver of this 'Angkut' stops us in the middle of nowhere and tells us he's not going our way. So here's the deal. It was raining, we were in the middle of some very scary looking town with no clue of how to get back.

Someone told us to take the blue 'Angkut' instead of the green one and the moment we saw a blue 'Angkut'..I could hear the voices in my head going 'Alleluia Alleluia'.

It took us TWO freaking hours to get back to our hotel which was only 20 minutes away from the shopping mall we were at.

No more angkuts or bangkuts..we swore to take taxis ONLY.


We went back to our hotel, rested a while, changed and got ready to hit the streets again for our next shopping destination.

Camwhore. Ask me why did I choose to camwhore instead of taking pictures of the scenery and all? Ask Ask!
Really scared to take out my hp and snap pics here and there. None of us took pictures.

Night time wasn't too bad. There were still street vendors here and there and I developed the wonderful skill of staring at the ground like it held the answers to my life.

Actually, it is very sad to see the extent people would go for some cash. It was disheartening. It was sad to see children..who deserved to be educated..begging in the streets. It was sad to see mothers, carrying babies..just begging. Situations like these makes me feel helpless. What can we do except to believe that God looks after all of us. Sad =(

Nevertheless, the next day..I was more than delighted to be headed home to where I belong.

Naik minibus lagi..tapi takpe..saya cukup gembira =)

Having said that, jangan marah if I didn't buy for you guys anything from Bandung. I actually spent much lesser than I thought I would because..you know..my shopping mood just went down the drain because of the circumstances that surrounded the whole trip.

Nevertheless, it was an experience I'll remember.

Did you hear? Did you hear?

I'm offfffffffffffffffffffffff

For a much anticipated holiday somewhere over the ocean.

I'll be back with pictures and stories soon =)

I know I know, some of you might be like "Oh good..she's gone.." but don't worry..I'll be back very soon to torture you with nonsensical stories and random updates.

You know you love my stories.

xoxo,
Cheryl..

p/s - Awak, I miss you lahhhhhh..

What are you today?

Today, I am the human mentos eating machine! I ate half a tube of mentos in five minutes. While I don't think this piece of information is useful for you, I just like stating my achievements like that.

Today, I am the annoyed little girl. How come they CANNOT repair my handphone? WTF?

Today, I am the quote-creator. "When in doubt, start talking like a chipmunk".

Today, I am the hard-worker. Bring on em' press releases and speeches and I'll do it in a jiffy.

Today, I am the believer. For Barrack Obama said, "There's nothing false about hope".

Today, I am the nonsense-talker. Oh wait, that's everyday.

Today, I realised how much I hated people who talk as though things are impossible. Nothing is impossible. It is only we who make them impossible.

Today, I am me :)

Sad songs

I like listening to music. I listen to music while writing, sleeping, travelling and for most parts of the day, I have a song stuck in my head.

Do you know of some songs that are really really sad you feel like crying? I know of one. It's Tony Rich Project's Nobody Knows.

Here's the song

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls are closing more every day
and I'm dying inside
and nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
and I'm crying inside
and nobody knows it but me

=(

Why didn't I say
the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a tumbling down
I can say it so clearly
but you're nowhere around

=(

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad
and I just keep thinking
'bout the love that we had
and I'm missing you
and nobody knows it but me

=(

I carry your smile when I'm broken in two
and I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside and nobody knows it but me
I lie awake it's a quarter past three
I'm screamin' at night as if I thought
you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is callin' you
and nobody knows it but me

=(

How blue can I get
You could ask my heart
but like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
A million words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know
I'll be loving you still

=(

Sedih sangat kan?

And again?

I entered the house showing my mum a bruised knee. She looked disinterested and asked, "When is it that you don't fall?"

I have to admit, I'm accident-prone. In a week, I fall at least once. Sometimes, I find bruises on my legs I never knew existed. Sometimes, there are bruises on my hand.

I like to believe my accident-prone behaviour started when I was in Standard One and my school bag was too heavy for me and I fell- face-first- on the ground. From that day forth, I would occasionally bang my head on the wall, fall while crossing the road, hit objects while walking and do loads of things to injure myself.

Three weeks ago, I went sliding down the monorail staircase until a Malay man grabbed me. Bruised knee, bruised ego.

Just now, THZ and I went into our usual wrestling spree while discussing the movie Legion and the main actor's abs. Suddenly, I lost control and my chair spun and the next thing I knew, I was on the ground. I started laughing and crying uncontrollably. The pain was crazy but more so, it was really lawak the way I fell.

But takpe..a bruised knee is better than a bruised heart. But you know what's even more sakit? A bruised knee AND a bruised heart. Heh -_-

Moving on...

Have you had friends forget you? They just forget. It's like you remember them and you still cherish the friendship that you have and when you sms them (twice), they don't reply.

At times like these, I wonder if the friendship even mean anything to them? Because if this friendship meant even the slightest bit, they would reply your message. I mean, no matter how busy you are, it only takes 60 seconds to reply a message.

Maybe you sms-ed them because of an emergency? Selfish kan kalau tak reply cam tu? Selfish giler..

Goodnite people..

Forgotten

If you ermm *stalk* or happen to stumble upon my Facebook page, you will find my cousins raving about Sotong Goreng ganja. My mother doesn't like us to overuse the word ganja. She says, "Later people think you're really taking ganja". Heh -_-

Anyways, a few of us once went to eat in Steven's Corner and my brother said how the food there has ganj (cannot say ganja..wtf). But really, the food is tasty. I don't think its ganj, I think it's just ajinamoto.



So happy after our dose of ganj.

Savisha pun terpaksa ikut us although she had exams. How can you say no to a plate of ganj..

Sorry, we were the only three who was semangat to take pictures. Vani was especially excited because of the Photoshop application in her iPhone. To quote her, "Omg, we all look so flawless and beautiful now". Actually, we were all just tired after work.

So, what's the deal with sotong goreng?

Ganj is served

Ganj is wiped out

=)

Use Somebody?

I had an overdose of the Grammy's today. I watched the Red Carpet on E! and watched the show on Star World. I was in awe at Pink's performance...awesome tak terhingga. Did you see her acrobatic movements and when she hung from the top with just a cloth? -_- *speechless*

Anyhow, my point is..I am so happy Kings of Leon won Record of the Year!!! Let me tell you why. The nominees for Record of the Year were..

1) You belong With Me - Taylor Swift
Of course, we all love Taylor Swift but this song does not deserve Record of the Year. Don't get me wrong, I love this song with all its "Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you?" but it's way to juvenile for Record of the Year.

2) Halo - Beyonce
Aiyo..this one is just overplayed to the max. In fact, it is so overplayed I think it will make it into the Most Annoying Record of 2009. While it has a wonderful meaning behind it, Beyonce tends to exaggerate her vocals and emotions to the point it hits the annoying button.

3) Poker Face - Lady Gaga
I love Lady Gaga! But po po po po po po poker face can win the award for the most Nonsensical Song of 2009. It's weird how just after listening to this song once, it becomes the song in your head and when you're trying to write something..all you hear is po po po poker face. But Lady Gaga's Bad Romance is awesome! Sing it with me..Rah Rah Rah Rah Rah, Roma Roma Ma, Ga ga oh la la..wtf..

4) I Gotta Feeling - BEP
This song is suppose to be a happy clappy one but saya terasa sedih dengar lagu ini =( Moving on, other than Kings of Leon, this song would have been a good winner for Record of the Year. This is the party song for 2009! Tell me, don't you feel so tempted to sway from side to side when you hear this? But takpe, they won loads of other awards that night so they could let this one go.

5) THE WINNER! Use Somebody - Kings of Leon
I love this! Suka gileeerrr! The moment I read through the nominees I found myself thinking that Kings of Leon deserve to win. If you haven't heard this song (living under a rock eh?) please go listen to it and you will find out what is it I'm raving about. I am going to sleep peacefully thinking about Kings of Leon winning..

I've been roaming around, I was looking down at all I see
painting faces, building places I can't reach

You know that I could use somebody...
you know that I could use somebody...

Someone like you and all you know and how you speak
countless lovers undercover of the streets

Use Somebody - Kings of Leon

P/S - Turut gembira Lucky by Jason Mraz won Best Pop Collaboration. Truly deserving =)

They never lie

It's a holiday! I believe we should always have more holidays on Mondays because nothing beats the joy on Sunday night..knowing that you won't have to work on Monday! Sheer joy I tell you.

Yesterday, Dayana and I made the biggest mistake of our lives by deciding to watch Tooth Fairy. I mean, we should have known. The *if you smell what the Rock is cooking* Rock in a tutu with wings! The movie sucked so bad. Dayana and I exchanged a million glances. Finally, we walked out..quarter-way.

I know, I know..coming from someone who didn't like Avatar (shoot me..kill me..but I really didn't like it), I'm not the best person to listen to for movie reviews. But the Tooth Fairy was just plain lame. Thank you.

Then later..Dayana and I were eating when she ordered something weird.

Me: Eh..what's this?
Dayana: Crab sticks lah. But not ordinary crab. This is the Royal CLAP.
Me: CLAP? Your chinese ancestors speaking through you already eh?
Dayana: ..................

Oh, Dayana is 1/3 Chinese btw.

Enjoy the holidays people! =)

One day at a time

While having our usual random conversation, this came up..

THZ: I don't understand why these people are so fake when they want money? Like prostitutes!

Me: Aren't we all? We only work hard because we want the money. We're the same

THZ: No! I want the satisfaction also

Me: *stares at THZ* Lagi lah prostitute!!!!

THZ: .........

So yes, analogies and metaphors are peppered in our daily conversation.

If you read my status today, I was ranting about revenge. I don't get the concept of revenge. If i sakitkan your hati, must you strive to do the same to me? An eye for an eye ; a tooth for a tooth?

Perhaps, in the past I had the believe that balas dendam was the best way to get back at someone..but..as I grew (NOT FATTER BUT OLDER!) I realised that revenge is hardly ever the answer.

As I was telling my mum about revenge and all yesterday..I said this..

Me: *trying to be smart* As it is said in the Bible ma.."When someone slaps you on the right cheek..

Justin: You slap him back on the left..!!!

Me: ........ No lah weh.."You offer him the other cheek".

But seriously, you think revenge will solve everything? I don't think so..

And so..my life continues.

Before I go..

Dear Lord,

If you withdraw Your hand, there is no grace.
If you cease to guide us, we have no wisdom,
If you no longer defend us, we have no courage,
If you do not strengthen us, our chastity is vulnerable,
If you do not keep a holy watch over us, our watchfulness cannot protect us,
By ourselves we sink, we perish;
When you are with us, we are uplifted, we live
We are shaky, you make us firm
We are lukewarm, you inflame us

Amen

Bye Bye Handphone?

As the saying goes, when it rains..it's a freaking thunderstorm. Just like most parts of my life which are either falling apart or seeing cracks, my handphone refuses to work.

The space button and a few other buttons just won't function which resulted in me, sending text messages like a robot.

"I..am..fine..thank..you..how..are..you?"

I could almost hear the robotic voice (and theme music) in my head.

For now, Savisha has grateful decided to lend me her handphone which has a battery span shorter than *ermm..go figure*.. But nevertheless, it works! And the space bar works! And I can send proper text messages.

Work has been the usual, my semester starts next week *woe woe* and my hair is still a perpetual mess.

THZ still cracks funny jokes, Dayana still composes her own songs in the car and the brother is still as random as ever.

So I guess, life's been like that. The same.

FYI

I've only put on a few grams. Not even kgs yet.

Yet everyone is going on and on about how I've gained weight.

Well, it had to happen some time or another kan?

T_T

Finding your inner voice

If there's one thing I'm not proud of it is the extent to which I find it difficult to stand up and speak out whenever I see an injustice taking place.

It is at times like these when I struggle to find my voice and whatever words that come out either makes me sound like a chipmunk on helium or a child being deprived of candy.

When I was younger, I would just stand back and watch. I would never dare question or confront anyone.

As I got older, I began to speak out. Helium-voiced or not, I tried to say things when I'm not happy. I want to be able to speak out my dissatisfaction. I need to able to tell things as it is. Sugar-coated words don't do any good. Plus, I always believe that if you try to hid things in your heart, sooner or later, you'd explode..and when you do, you wouldn't be happy.

So, in my chipmunk-helium-candy voice I try to say things, for example :-

"You're an asshole with little knowledge of what to say and how to say it"

Or sometimes, it's not always bad. It may be good things like..

"You dazzle me"

It's not easy, coming from someone who is used to chopping and mincing her words carefully so as to not hurt anyone..but..over the years..I'd realised that sometimes, things should be said as it is.

If you said something to hurt me, then you should know it.

If you did something to make me love you, then you should know it as well.

And so it is, the complications of my life prolong. But, as I've said before, I'm not afraid..

Before I go..

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. 1 Corinthians 13:1-13

Game Face

Do you believe in miracles? We read in the Bible how Jesus often performed many miracles for the people of that time. In this modern age and time, most of us find the concept of miracles a little far fetched.

Every so often, I get caught up in my daily ordeal and when something out of the ordinary happens, I suddenly realise.."wait a minute, was that a miracle? How did that happen?". Of course, some pessimist write it off as sheer coincidence but me..no..no..I believe in miracles. Most importantly, I believe in the miracles that God performs every day in our lives to restore our faith in humanity.

So, okay..here's the deal. I almost killed myself today morning.

Deep in thoughts..I didn't realise the traffic light had already turned red and terus went on driving macam champion. Suddenly I saw a car coming very fast..almost hitting me and the car missed me by seconds.

I felt my heart in my throat.

Miracle.Miracle. Thank you God.

Moving on, over the weekend, Gopi's sister came over to play with me. WTF?! Haha

C'mon lah Agasti, your eyes can never be as big as mine. Thank you :)



We did the usual girly stuff. Gossip, ate dessert, watched movies and talked the whole night through.

And then we went to the zoo!!

Like we always tell each other, we're close not just for the sake of she being my boyfriend's sister. We're close because we're sisters =)

Thank you sayanggg for coming and spending time. Me love you!!

TTYL

Because I can

My sister tried making me listen to her stories yesterday but to no avail. I have the shortest attention span and started being shifty eye the moment she started her story. As she continued talking, I sent three text messages and thought about a million random things.

She got annoyed and my mum and her started discussing how my attention span is so bad. They actually scolded me for not watching a tamil movie that was playing on Astro. In the words of my mum, "Why can't you just sit down, shut up and watch that movie?"

Where got parents scold their children for not watching TV? -_-

But yes, you have to be really interesting to get me interested. Or else, I'll just shut down my system and you will be talking to a blur Cheryl.

Muka blur.

My blog is really growing from strength to strength eh? *sarcastic tone*

I'm sorry. I'll find more interesting things to blog about. Like how I'm going to the zoo this weekend..perhaps..wtf?! hahaha..

TTYL

And if you have a minute why don't we go

Talk about it somewhere only we know?

This could be the end of everything.

So why don't we go, so why don't we go?

Confident much

As I was doing my work, this conversation took place..

THZ: *showing me a picture of a girl in short shorts and lots of cleavage* Cheryl, why would they want to take pictures like this and post in on Facebook?

Cheryl: Because, they are not confident. They need approval from others. Hence the need to take pictures like that and post in all over.

THZ: Hmmm...

Cheryl: Look at us, we're confident. We don't need no pictures like that

THZ: Hmmmm..

Cheryl: And it is also because we prolly cannot pull of pictures like that..hahahaha..wtf

THZ:..............

And subsequently, we were doing something when I said..

Cheryl: Wait..wait..which part of wait don't you understand?

THZ: The 'W' part..

Cheryl: ........

And I must add, THZ took her responsibility as a Chinese very seriously when she decorated our workstations with paper tang lungs and fan. To which I told her her ancestors will be very proud of her.

Ok thank you please come again

Bye

Cinta sejati

I've been humming Bon Jovi's Bed of Roses since I woke up. But that's not really important. When I am not emo, I suffer from serious writer's block. I have no idea what to blog about or my lame jokes just run dry.

But when I'm emo, every minute also can blog.

Actually, it's not that I'm not emo. I'm emo..just pretending not to be emo.

And so, emo is an overused word here today.

I was late again for work today but I guess this is no longer an important story. Every morning, it's a struggle to take out my car. My brother takes pride in ensuring all the cars fit within the vicinity of our house area and thus..i struggle and struggle..sometimes, having to move my brother's car before actually getting my car out. And again, this story has no point.

Muka stress.

I'm sorry. This post prolly wins for the lamest post ever.

TTYL

How's your life for you?

I came to work complaining to THZ about my skirt that keeps riding up my waist. We concurred that it is prolly because I've gained weight. Heh..moving on..

I checked my exam results and I actually did better than expected. It lifted up my spirits. Always comforting to know that amidst everything, your brain is still working.

But then again, my wonderful university only registered me for two subjects for the upcoming semester and despite me calling them 1001 times, they still haven't registered the other subject. Damnit.

I'm no longer my emo self. I think I've come to terms with a lot of things that has happened in my life and I'm finding God's grace in mistakes that I've made.

Life is amazing like that because it gives you second..third and maybe a fourth chance to do things right.

Before I go, here's something from my favourite song..

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field
For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

Viva la Vida, Coldplay ( a song that I could listen over and over too and not get bored)

Heartless Part 2

I arrived at work so so so early today (like 7.45am) much to the surprise of my colleagues. I am so proud of myself. Sometimes, these little things are enough to cheer me up.



Pagi-pagi sudah force THZ to take pictures. My excuse was that I was seemingly unhappy. Since THZ was on leave yesterday, we had a lot of catching up to do and went into a super-animated conversation for the longest time ever..

I don't know what to blog anymore. My words are not real.

TTYL

Heartless

There comes a point in our lives when we find ourselves alone. Sitting in a lonely office, watching TV alone, singing in your room or crying yourself to sleep. At this point, we wonder where all the people are? We wonder where are the people who promised to stick by us through thick and thin? Where are the people who promised us forever? Where are the people who guaranteed a love undying?

Did these people walk out by themselves? Or did we push them away? Or perhaps, they're time with us is finished..that the friendship or love you thought would last forever suddenly doesn't exist anymore. Or maybe it's God's way of helping you to create new paths in your life.

Either way, solitude is good for us. It gives you time to think, it gives you moments to reflect, it brings you closer to God.

Can we live a life of solitude?

As the famous song goes, " Isolation, is not good for me..Isolation, I don't wanna to sit on a lemon tree"

For now, all I can see is a lemon tree =)

Yesterday

I believe I start most of my blog post by saying how I didn't have to mood to come to work. Today, super emo. I refused to get up and wanted to stay in bed for as long as I could. But..logic dictates otherwise and here I am, bright and cheery (fake fake) in the office.

The things I did to cheer myself up:-

1) Listened to favourite songs. "na..na..na..na..everyday, like my Ipod's stuck on Replay". Not working but I've got the song in my head.

2) Mentally commented on every single Indian girl I met on the train. If you're Indian and you meet me in the train..beware! You will be judged. *extreme sadist wtf*

3) Made a resolution not to say any bad words and then thought about a conversation I had with THZ yesterday.

She: Don't make me say it
Me: Say it.
She: Fuck
Me: Hahahahahahahahaha!

4) Started talking non-stop to THZ. Sadly declared that I live a sad life while allowing her to call me a stupid Indian girl.

5) Realised that I cannot update my blog until the 19th.

Sad face =(

I'm off for a much-needed blog break (wtf?!) I'll be back on the 19th..better than ever..

Don't miss me too much people ..nyeh nyeh nyeh

TTYL

Celebrating life

In the train today morning, I met a friend and we started talking about random stuff and I was telling him a story about a guy. Our conversation went like this..

Me: And then the girl didn't like him.
Him: Why couldn't he have found someone else?
Me: Cinta sejati kot..
Him: Aiyo, please lah Cheryl. There's no such thing as love and all. People need companion. We find someone for the sake of companionship.
Me:...... Then what about love? And finding your soul mate? You don't believe?
Him: Nope. It's all about companion
Me: Hah? If you want companions, you can go find friends. We find love for a reason.
Him: You're too young perhaps. One day, you'll be like me. Love and all that shit doesn't exist.
Me: ......

I felt like someone robbed my candy and left me hanging. Or or like a child being told that Santa Clause doesn't exist.

As jaded and twisted as I am, I am of the opinion that the only thing keeping this world sane is love. Yes, love makes you do crazy thing, it leaves you feeling ridiculously happy at one moment and down the drain at the next. It eats you up from inside and sometimes you feel like your eyeballs are being dug out by a spoon. But but but, I guess the absence of love is far more detrimental than love itself.

I don't care about how it works out or if this is meant to be..I like the feeling of love. And even if it is temporary, I want to be happy at that moment.

Because sometimes, love..like a cough..cannot be hidden.

TTYL :)

I can transform you

If you know me well enough, you will know how I have the ability to dispense advice at the blink of an eye. Tell me your problems and I'll tell you a solution, backed with quotes and sayings.

But of late, there seems to be a need for me to apply whatever I've been preaching to my own life. And God knows how hard it has been for me. I've read books, wrote pages and pages of nonsense to myself and talked endlessly to my friends..but..I still find myself in dire need of an attitude change.

Yesterday, I spoke to THZ and she was very determined to help me. While her approach may be a bit radical, she did help me a lot. It involved lots of scolding and giving me examples of other girls who behaved as stupidly as I am behaving, calling me stupid a few hundred times and making me do things that caused me to be very sakit hati. But..I did it. As much as I take pride in myself being a wise, intelligent, independent woman..I had to admit I needed her remedial actions to save me.

At times, I guess, it's okay to reach out to another person when you know you need all the help you can get. At this point, I know I need help and I'm so grateful that 'help' came in the form of a girl who sits next to me. Of course, I wish she sat a bit further as I wouldn't have to endure her painful pinching. But, it's all good.

Help comes in mysterious forms I tell you.

So, here's to me..discovering life..starting anew.

=)

Would it be my fault?

My life in number form

1) Awakes groggily to the sound of my handphone. The Boyfriend called to wake me up. He knew how serious I was about going to work early.

2) Tells The Boyfriend I'm awake but goes back to sleep.

3) Woke up at 7.05am and realised that saying 'Oh F**k' is not a good way to start the day.

4) Successfully made self presentable by 7.40. Self is optimistic that won't be late to work today

5) Gets in car and realises car got no petrol. *Profanity Profanity Profanity*

6) Realises can pump petrol in under four minutes. *Victory dance* Also realises that I'm not a bad driver after all.

7) Drives to the train station. *profanity profanity profanity*. These people don't know about my plan to come early to work. Hence the need for them to drive like wtf today!!

8) Takes train and starts judging people. Cannot. Help. It. Saw a girl who used to be fat and then suddenly became really skinny and now she's back to her old self. Contemplated telling her that she looks better fat. But didn't.

9) Walks to monorail and realises that I need new shoes. Saw a man playing the recorder and fumbles in bag for some lose change to give him. Habit. I must give. Got it from my father.

10) Takes the monorail and realises it's already 8.45. Rationalises that it is okay because I come to work at 9.

11) Reaches office at 8.50. It's all good.

Late also still sempat take picture.

TTYL!

Pacify

Currently listening to : Fake Plastic Trees, Radiohead
" She looks like the real thing. She tastes like the real thing. My fake plastic love"

It's already 5.40pm and while work technically is over at 5.30pm, everyone is still bursting with energy, typing furiously on their PCs and working very hard like that. I have work too. I have a whole load of work. But since I've done most of it the first half of the day, I can lovingly blog now. Dedicated like that I tell you.

Today, THZ and I were talking and I proudly told her how I used to skip tuition to go watch movies with friends and occasionally go dating! During my Form Six years, we used to do that all the time. Not that I'm proud of it ok. And if you're below 19 and reading this blog, please take note that you cannot skip tuition to go watch movies or go dating. Looking back, I wish I studied harder. Too little too late now kan?

Ok, loads of work. But before I go, here's what happened to my bear today..

Damn sad like that :(

TTYL!

The emo me

Currently listening to: My Wish, Rascal Flatts

"Your dreams stay big and your worries stay small"

I woke up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy (haha..wtf..it's that silly song Tick Tock). Ahem, ok serious. I woke up in the morning dreading work. I couldn't endure another day of sitting in front of the PC. I know, it's only the seventh day of the year and I'm already feeling like this. But still, I dragged myself to work and managed to complete some major things on my to-do list. So, now I have time to blog.

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Today morning, THZ and I were in the lift when this girl entered wearing an over sized green shirt, brown skirt, solid black leggings, and white sandals. THZ looked at me and I could read her mind. She was saying, "OMG..Cheryl look! Fashion disaster!". The girl stood in front of me and I am not the best person for fashion but really..that was a disaster!

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The story is this. Even with such horrendous combination of clothes, that girl was pretty confident. She walked with her head up and didn't flinch a bit as I non-discreetly checked her out. I must say..I was impressed. I've seen girls who are drop dead gorgeous yet walk with their hair covering their faces like a veil because they're either not confident or they're afraid people might be blinded by their gorgeous-ness.

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I am not the best looking person in the world, but when I walk..I try to do it with a little confidence. Sometimes, in the presence of some people..I get a little self-conscious and tend to do the whole hair-covering-face thing..but most of the time..messy hair or not..I try to walk confidently. Plus, you don't have to be tall to walk tall :)

I don't see a point in this post..but yes..TTYL!

p/s - Thank you THZ for these. And for making me temporarily high on sugar.

I could get used to you

I have always been a distracted little err girl (or woman wtf!). I can go from being extremely focused to doing things haphazardly. My mind is so active sometimes I wanna shut it down and log off. The battery never runs weak. I'm always wondering, thinking, figuring out, planning, contemplating, dreaming, reminiscing..and I do it so much..I wonder what it will be like to just have a blank moment. Like thinking about nothing. An empty mind. Possible? Hmmm..

Anyhow, the New Year is ..ermm..just the same as every other day in my life. Drama-fied. I am so drama-some sometimes, I wonder how my friends put up with me. I spent the whole day telling THZ I have "issues" but never really mentioning any "issues".

Random pictures:



THZ so lovingly baked for me brownies. It was delicious. Thank youuuuu THZ! She also bought me donuts today. And she claims not to love me. Heh. I know you love me lah..


Narcissism is ermm..in my DNA? I cannot help it. I know taking pictures of my self is damn annoying but I like doing it. I need to be diagnosed :(

Savisha and her constant companion - food. We ate so much in Penang..I couldn't think of food in KL.

The brother. Nampak kurus but eats like wtf so much. More than Gopi.

Hello forehead! You know what they say about people with large foreheads? Yup, they're smart like that! And..what do they say about people with big eyes?? *private joke..you guys won't get it*

Gopi minum kopi. We laughed when Gopi ordered coffee and thought it was the funniest thing in the world that Gopi is drinking kopi. Not funny meh?

Until the next lame post..

TTYL. Before I go..

Sleep. It's the easiest thing to do; you just close your eyes. But for so many of us, sleep seems out of grasp. We want it, but we don't know how to get it. Yet once we face our fears and turn to each other for help, night time isn't so scary because we realize even in the dark, we aren't all alone. Grey's Anatomy

Worry Worry Worry

If there's one thing common ALL my friends share, is their ability to worry, fret, worry, worry and worry some more. For most occasions, I am the pacifier. Sometimes, I feel like a mother.

See..I worry too. I worry because I got a B+ for my assignment and I prolly won't do that well in the exam.

I worry because I am not able to finish my work, yet here I sit blogging.

I worry about my relationship when I start seeing cracks.

I worry about the emotional state of my mind, when I start acting slightly heartless.

I worry about never being able to afford an LV bag (bimbo statement wajib)

I worry about my life, the direction it's heading, the things I'm doing, the things I'm not doing.

But my worries are often subsided by the simple but true statement that 'everything gonna be alright'. I mean, will all our worries add on to a single day in our life? Nope. It causes wrinkles and makes us appear older than we already are. Plus, God never gives us more than we can handle..and, as the saying goes, " If God sends us on strong paths, we are provided with strong shoes".

So, teman-teman ku..why worry? Worry is for the unbelieving.

Being Honest

The new year was celebrated with the noisy noisy family and subsequently a trip to Penang to help Hairy Gopi settle his house. Justin and Savisha followed us to Penang and if I had a ringgit for every time a curse was said, I'd be richer than the late Lim Goh Tong :)

Gopi, Justin and Savisha are just rude. Plain rude. Every other driver on the road was scolded and cursed and me..well..if you can't beat them, join them. I pun turut serta marah random people.

I'm finding it hard to swallow the fact that I am twenty-freaking-five-years-old this year! I mean, have you had a conversation with me? I can switch from talking like this mature girl to a chipmunk in five minutes. My own boss tells people not to listen to me because half of the time I don't make sense. The best friend believes it is impossible to argue with me because I talk nonsense. Like that. How? Twenty-five eh? -_-

So, happy New Year people. Hope this year is better than the last.

Respecting feelings yet doing the right thing

Happy New Year!!

A tad bit sad for the new year

I am hope for all who are hopeless,
I am eyes for all who long to see.
In the shadows of the night,
I will be your light,
Come and rest in me

I am the Word that leads all to freedom,
I am the peace the world cannot give.
I will call your name,
Embracing all your pain,
Stand up, now walk, and live!

Happy Thoughts

Masking sadness, we think about happy things. We take our minds to happy places, one where we were joyful, our hearts lighter and our spirits free.

Randomly, here are some of the things that make me happy.

1) Having a hot cup of teh tarik in Genting Highlands. Best gilerrrr..you'll die and go to heaven like that ;)

2) A compliment from the boss. I live to see this 'Okay Good' you know. Sad like that.

3) Ben & Jerry's that we had at Dayana's house. We ate so much junk food that day, I felt the sugar go up to my head. And sugar rushes are no good for me.

4) Books with quirky titles. Chicken Soup for the Singles Soul. It's an irony because technically, we are all single souls kan? Who here has a double soul? -_-

5) Ice cream again. Buy me ice cream and I'm yours the next second. RM1 McD cone ice cream pun jadi ;)

6) KFC Snack Plate. THZ and I sometimes crave for KFC and we're lucky that KFC is just nearby. Something about the fat laden oily chicken that keeps us wanting more. Can.Already.Feel.Arteries.Clogging.

7) Anything red, pink or the in between. The lotion has a sickeningly sweet smell that actually gave me a headache for a few hours.

8) This was something THZ brought for me to eat yesterday. She says it's called 'Tang Yuen' and each coloured ball you eat will prolong your life for a year. I ate like twenty. Haha..wtf..

9) Tiramisu cake. It's THZ's. She would pass by Coffee Bean everyday and glance lovingly at the cake. Finally, my colleague bought it for her and she was..temporarily..a happy bunny.

10) The colleague bought me a banana muffin as well. Gaya-gaya dapat bonus, semua orang pun hendak dibelanja..*ahem*

Are you waiting for the New Year? I am!!

TTYL :)

Wrapping up 2009

Last year, I did a wrap up for 2008 with loads of pictures. This year, I'll do it with words. 2009 has had a fair share of happiness and sadness..it saw me transform from a starry eyed girl to one who is hard and jaded. I no longer see the world through my rose-coloured-shades but I see it as it is. Sometimes, I wear the rose-coloured shades..most of the time..i live in reality.



So, here's my take on 2009.

Career : I've successfully stayed on in the same job for the past one year!! *claps claps* I've grown to love the job, I enjoy a love-hate relationship with my colleagues and my boss has been good to me. I've been able to sharpen my skills and this job has given me so many opportunities..to grow and develop. For now, i'm loving it.

Education : I've also completed three more semesters of my Masters which now leaves me with two more semesters before I'm officially a Masters holder *claps claps*. I still feel like giving up more often than not, but with the wonderful support from my family..saya tabah.

Friendship : Not a very proud area for me. I've made new friends, lost some old one, forgotten some really good ones. I wished I hadn't done some things, I wish I did some things right..but all in all..I not going to cry over spilt milk. I know I've hurt some people out there..and for that..my apologies :( Next year, will be a better year..for sure.

Relationship: Another area which is hard to pinpoint if it was good or bad. All of you are well aware that I have been in a relationship for 5 years 8 months to be precise and it's not been a bed of roses. This year has been especially hard as we both got busy with our own careers and the distance tore us apart. Still, today, I can safely (and proudly) say that we're okay :) Whatever problems we have, we'll sort them out and together..we'll be better than ever. On my part, henceforth, I promise to give my best in this relationship. I know I've failed in so many ways..but here's to second (and third) chances and to continue loving each other till the end of time.

Spiritual : A good area for me this year. Despite Herculean tasks and truckload of problems, I managed to stay strong because of my faith in God. Whenever faced with difficulties, I fall back on the words of the scripture, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me". I have faith in God's plans for me and listening to him will certainly lead me to the path of righteousness.

Emotional: Where do I begin? From a whirlwind of emotions to the one phase where I was just dark and twisty..this has been an emotional year. Most of the time, I've faked a smile or two when all I wanted to do was just to break down and cry. I got depressed over small things and I became very apprehensive about the future. But, as mentioned above, I'm keeping the faith.

So in conclusion, I offer a very sincere and heartfelt apology to everyone who I have hurt in one way or another. For the things I've said and done and for the things I've failed to say and do, please forgive me. It's been a learning process and I am taking whatever experiences I've had in 2009 and making 2010 a far better year.

So, Happy New Year people! Here's to a brand new beginning and a chance to do things right this time :)



Cheryl Fernando

My Christmas in picture form

Finding a man

I arrived at work surprisingly early today and oh wait..yes, I am working on the fourth day of Christmas although I am a Christmas-celebrating-Catholic. Upon arriving, THZ extended her hand..

THZ: Hie, I'm Hwue Zuin. Are you new?
Me: So not funny.

Obviously poking fun at my inability to come early to work.

Later, we were walking for lunch when I spotted this Very Nice Car.

Me: Eh, THZ, your car ar?
THZ: Yea..my Prince Charming left it here
Me: Prince Charming? Charming or Cha Ming. You know, Cha Ming like some cina guy's name
THZ: WTF...?! Hahahahahhahaha

And later, she was talking to me..

THZ: Cheryl, you know the Chinese boy with the Chinese name?
Me: As opposed to the Chinese boy with the Indian name?
THZ: .....

Season's Greetings people! Tis' the season to be jolly.

TTYL

Terry Mismass

To everyone who reads this humble blog, to those who like it and those who detest it, to those who offer advice on what I should and should not blog, to those who say they actually enjoy reading this blog, and to my ermm..stalkers (?)

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Thank you for reading cherylest.blogspot.com. I shall continue this bimbotic, abit jaded and slightly emotional blog for as long as I can.

Have a great holiday people!

Love,
Cheryl Fernando

Ice Princess

I finally went Xmas shopping!!!! But it seems like the whole world also had the same idea and took leave on the same day as me to go shopping! WTF? The roads were jam packed, the parking lots were hell and and and..I wanted to declare myself dead before even reaching the place.

Anyway..
This baju kena reject. Senyum cam ape oni..


This was not rejected. I liked the top and the skirt. And my partner-in-crime agreed with me. It was so me! Simple and nice. But my sister says it's abit kampung. Takpe..tak kisah


This one..I liked it soo much! But I didn't buy it. I didn't love it. You know right that like isn't enough? You must love it to buy it..

Partner-in-crime and I decided to seal the deal by buying matching chains. We're tight like that kan?


Partner-in-crime malu like that to reveal herself.

BTW, it's AGASTI. Gopi's sister =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!!!!

ttyl

Yay Yay!

So, my exams are finally over! Christmas here I come!!! The funny part is that I haven't had time for any Christmas shopping so I'll have to wear something old this year. Takpe, asalkan new spirit :)

How did the exams go? Between half sleeping and struggling to complete four essays in three hours..it went okay. I mean WTF kan? At least it's over. I've got two more semesters before I am officially done with my masters.



No more dramatic-studying-pictures like this until February. One whole month to rest and ermm..i want to say party..except I'm not so happening as that. So yeah, one month to rest.

On a separate note, I leave three bears in my office and my colleagues take great pride in torturing the bears. They tie them up, beat them and do all sorts of naughty things to the bears. This is especially the case when I'm on holiday.

One day, I went back to work to find my bear hung at the side of my table like this:-

Sad or not?? T_T

So, knowing that I was going to be on a long leave from last Tuesday till today..I put a note on my bears saying "DO NOT TOUCH".

The results: -
I found this hung to my chair today

Ceh..

Final days

All I wanna do is get some eye-shut. On my bed. Not on the chair or the floor..or the table! Last paper tomorrow and then I don't have to look at this strategicmanagementconsumerbehaviourmarketingstrategy nonsense anymore. Until my new semester starts in February lah.

I cannot tell if my friends are more happy that I'm finishing my exams or I'm happy. Dayana called earlier to ask me about my paper and she sounded more happier about my last paper tomorrow than I am.

Sometimes, I cannot believe myself. I had half an hour to finish an essay on globalisation today and instead of going straight to the point, I started my essay with.."In this age of technological advancements, globalisation has become ..." And suddenly, I gave myself a mental kick and wondered WTF am I doing? Just start the damn essay lah kan? Why wanna intro all?

Okay. Last Paper.

TTYL!

Hours before the exam

Pictorial depiction of macam mana saya sudah giler! Freaking out already this time..but I appear calm kan?

One paper down..two more to go..

Countdown with me people!! :) :)

In case you didn't know

For your information:-

For all who are concern if I'm really studying or not...


I am :) :)

Studying Day Two

Currently listening to: The TV

It's day two of my hardcore-studying-like-good-girl-like-that and I can safely say..I'm heading somewhere. I ain't like the headless chicken I was a few days ago, shuffling through my notes..wondering where to start. I completed strategic management yesterday, started marketing strategy today and will do consumer behaviour tomorrow. I know, you're prolly not interested in this..but, what else do I have to blog about?

Spending time at home is not fun. Besides studying and creating conversations in my head, I am not doing anything else..T_T

Bosan.

Please let Monday come fast.

Till day three tomorrow..

TTYL!

So close

Currently listening to: So Close, Jon Mclaughlin
"As life goes on, romantic dreams must die"

I'm on my study break!! Which means, no work till next Monday. This is of course good news, minus the fact that I have to actually do some serious hardcore studying before the exams on Saturday, Sunday and Monday. FML!

I've been flipping through my books and I realised I haven't registered for my upcoming semester. I went online only to find out that the registration is closed. Triple FML. I found out later that it will open again soon. Must.Be.Alert.

Have I mentioned how I hate making decisions? THZ and I were talking the other day about how everything is a decision these days. It's like the sum of our lives is measure by decisions. Everyday. Must. Make. Decisions. One. Want burger or hotdog? Want dress or skirt? What this or that? Eeeeeeeehhhh

Okbye.

Studying.

Like. For. Real.

Babes, this update is lame because i just updated it just for you. You owe me big time. Inclusive of all the other favours I've done for you..you might as well lay out your life for me. -_-

List List!

Currently listening to : Please Don't Leave Me, Pink

"I always say how I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back to this"

My top five reason why girls should ALWAYS have a bullet-proof heart.

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Disclaimer : This is with the exception of the father, the brother, the boyfriend and the wonderful guy friends I have :)

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1) Men can tell lies with straight faces. They lie and lie and lie a little more. They do it so convincingly, they don't know the truth anymore.

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2) They're good at making empty promises. "Sure, I'll buy you that castle", but in the end, you're left with nothing but a kandang lembu. Of course, I'm speaking figuratively

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3) They're heartless. They have numbed their emotions so much that they don't feel pain anymore. I have heard a guy say.."I can make a girl pregnant and leave her the next minute". I heard okay!!!

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4) They like the chase. It always comes back to the chase. They like the thrill of trying to get your number, trying to talk to you, trying to make you fall in love. And when you do..bye bye bye!

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5) They lie. Oh, said already kan? But they lie. They lie and they hide things. Lie lie lie!

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This is manufactured anger people. It's not directed any anyone. I'm particularly free today so I decided to recall back all the stories I've heard about men and condense them into points.

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Purely for entertainment purposes!!

Easy joy

Currently listening to: Fall for you, Secondhand Serenade

"And remember me tonight, when you're asleep"

Monotonous. That is how I would describe my life. Things have fallen into a dreaded routine that my motivation is sinking. Tapi takpe, I'll bounce back soon.


Since I had free tickets to go to Genting, I decided to take my cousins and go up there to play play like that. But aih..I tried to be happy-cheery-and-all-enthusiastic but I kept slipping into sudden moments of silence. Roller coasters are not my thing. The thrill of going up and down and the spams of fear doesn't do me any good. Tapi, the cold weather is a good :)





Again, the brother. He was like 'Cheryl and Beryl..must take picture..' Hahahahaha...



The rest of the pictures are ermm..not nice like that. So cannot post.



On a happier and less grumpier mode..I have started studying for my finals! Yippeee..Paulo Coelho said, "Our biggest problems are not knowing when to start and not knowing when to stop". Sungguh bijak. I just couldn't start studying but yesterday, a wave of 'semangat-ness' hit me and I studied very bery hard like that!

Strategic Management, Marketing Strategy and Consumer Behaviour. Hopefully, I keep up with this semangat throughout the week until my exam on Saturday.

Proof that I studied. Highlighted book and little notes to read while travelling. Semangat or not..you tell me???!!

On a different note, my office is very smart. They motivated us by giving us different coloured lanyards to wear according to our mood.

Very nice kan? THZ and I were going on and on about how nice these lanyards are and how we could match it with our clothes.

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As the day went on, I was facing my computer screen when THZ started flipping my hair over and over again. I asked her what she wanted but I couldn't understand her mumbles. So, I turned to her, held her hand and asked her in the most affectionate tone.

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"What do you want THZ?"

And she said.."I don't know Cheryl, I need attention"

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Before I go,

''Pitiful is the person who is afraid of taking risks. Perhaps this person will never be disappointed or disillusioned; perhaps she won't suffer the way people do when they have a dream to follow." Paulo Coelho

Revolving world

* Random act-cute picture my bro made me take in Genting*

Updates tomorrow..before I go..

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, forever is over
We used to kiss all night, now its just a bar fight
So don't call me crying, say hello and goodbye

I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
I love you forever, but now I'm sober

Boys Like Girls, LoveDrunk

*Suka-giler songs like this..such a teenager.tsk tsk*

Love and its blindess

Currently listening to: Fire, Babyface & Desiree

" I say I don't love you, but you know I'm a liar"

Over chicken and rice, THZ and I were talking. Our conversation went from this..

Me: So, this guy was talking and he was soo boring. As much personality as a teaspoon
THZ: Teaspoon? Is that what you tell people about me?
Me: No, you're a cupcake.
THZ: You're a pizza. At first, people will want so much to talk to you and get to know you..once they do..they'll be like.."No more Pizza..please..we had enough". Pizza overdose!
Me: .......

To this..

Me: You don't plan who to fall in love with..you just fall! But having said that, I think love is not blind these days..
THZ: Yes, I cannot be with a guy who is *insert criteria*
Me: Hahahahahha..aiyah..so jahat one!
THZ: Excuse me? Would you want somebody who is *insert opposite of above criteria*?
Me: Sorry! For me..engineers only. No less.
THZ: ...............

We further discussed how the age and time nowadays, love is no longer blind. You sorta know the type of person you want and you fall in love accordingly. Most of the times at least. Of course there are rare occasions when sometimes..love just happens. It defies time, distance and logic and it just happens!

I am not the best person to define love. I guess the definitions to these things are fuzzy. The lines are often blurred and you don't really know if this is love or that is love. But, instead of defining it..I choose to enjoy it. Love..in all its glory, power, passion and pain.

Before I go: -

“As Einstein said, God does not play dice with the universe; everything is interconnected and has a meaning.”

2009 Wrap-Up

It has been a while that I’ve posted on Cherie’s blog.
So here’s the final one from me for the year 2009.

Currently listening to: Kenny G’s Romantic Collection Album (sick of the hit songs nowadays..tsk tsk..)

2009 Wrap-up

1. There are no more decent, worthy single guys left in this world. Guys in general simply do not believe in monogamy (yes, flirting with other girls while being in a relationship is wrong in my dictionary)
Poster Boys for Polygamy: Tiger Woods, John Gosselin and Hugh Hefner
2. There will not be any *** for the rest of my life due to reason no.1
3. I will be the bitter spinster in the office who hates on young girls also due to reason no.1

2010 Resolution

1. Stop being boy-crazy and whiny
2. Travel to Paris with D
3. Get some assets as security for old age

oh..and I will be anticipating Cherie's ******* announcement in 2010 too
Lucky CHERIE!! I hate you! ROFL..

We found it!

Currently listening to: True, Ryan Cabrera

"I'm just scared to know the ending"

THZ and I, in an attempt to discover the Christmas spirit (and go shopping), decided to act all tourist-y yesterday and take pictures at Pavilion. Mind you, Pavilion is next to my office but we acted like some China and India tourist..in awe of the decorations..


And hence, the power of fairy lights. Can make anything and everything look so gorgeous like that..

We were going on and on about "how beautiful are the trees" and "how nice everything is" and "how Christmas makes me happy" etc etc..

Gorgeous kan? I was in awe..Have you ever seen anything more gorgeous in your life?? -_-


Running out of captions. Cannot keep saying gorgeous. Gorgeous is an overused word in this blog..

So, apakah conclusion post ini? Hmmm..I think I can feel the Christmas spirit creeping in. My parents are planning the menu and I was mentally planning who to invite and who *not to invite* etc.

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BTW, I haven't started studying for my exams. Instead, I've been reading Twilight. I know, I should start. I'll start today..pinky swear!

Before I go,

“Love is the only thing that activates our intelligence and our creativity, that purifies and liberates us.” The Zahir, Paulo Coelho

Are we insecure?

Currently listening to : Save tonight, Eagle Eye Cherry

" It ain't easy to say goodbye, darling please don't start to cry"

Insecurity.

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It creeps and eats us up inside.

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The faces of insecurity are many. From the beautiful girl who seeks reassurance from strangers to the over sized girl crying at the bathroom stall upon being ignored.

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Confidence is nothing but a facade. It is merely an outer shell. Inside, we're all scared, insecure, worried, doubtful of our next step, wondering if they would still love us the same way tomorrow.

I wear confidence to replace my fear.

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"Of course I know our friendship will end soon..but I'll be okay. We have to move on" I say but inside I'm wondering what my life would be without you in it.

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"Yes, I can handle this event by myself" I say but inside I'm praying for a miracle where I will not get a chance to do the event.

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"Yes, I can study hard enough to exceed the needed CGPA" I say but inside I'm wondering how am I going to do it.

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And like that..I go on living. A confident mask. Inside, a scared bunny.

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Later days!

New layout!!

Currently listening to: Rehab, Rihanna

"You were like my lover and my best friend, all wrapped into one with a ribbon on it"

Inspired by THZ (wajib give her royalty), I changed my blog header!! So bangga of myself. I nearly went squint (yea yea..I'm already squint..I know) while designing it so lovingly.

So, with a new blog header and the new year fast approaching..can we say I'm ready for changes in my life?

*Thinks hard*

I cannot imagine any significant changes. I deem that by the end of 2010, I'll still be blogging nonsense, talking too loud, making silly mistakes, saying the wrong things and feeling dark..dark and twisty..to be precise.

Tapi takpe, I've learnt to accept myself..drama and all.. :)

Here's to new beginnings and a more dramatic me! Amen!

The Christmas Joy

I blogged last year about how I couldn't feel the Christmas spirit. This year is the same. No, I'm not a grouch..but it just happens that my exams fall on the 19th, 20th and 21st. So, no Christmas until then.. How not to be depressed like this? How not to be deranged?

I don't even have mood for Christmas shopping. I was telling my sister how I'd prolly wear an old dress and celebrate Christmas in my heart. You know, personally feeling happy that Christ the Lord was born to save us..but not getting caught up with the commercial part of Christmas.

Random: - I believe, Facebook has run its course of time. I swear there's nothing much to do there..I write rubbish status updates and I upload random pictures. I am only keeping my account because I need to stalk some people and I chat with friends becoz so lazy to buka msn..

Other than that, what is there to do on Facebook? The boyfriend also agrees with me and even worst than me..he hardly checks his account. I take the liberty of answering comments for him :)

Till tomorrow..TTYL

And of course, before I go..:-

“I've heard that it's possible to grow up - I've just never met anyone who's actually done it. Without parents to defy, we break the rules we make for ourselves. We throw tantrums when things don't go our way, we whisper secrets with our best friends in the dark, we look for comfort where we can find it, and we hope - against all logic, against all experience. Like children, we never give up hope...” Grey's Anatomy

How do I love thee?

The weekend, like any other weekend, passed in a blur. I had class on Saturday so much of Friday was spent finishing up bits of my presentation and one assignment.

Saturday was spent in class *half dreaming-half listening* and I realised my course mates always laughed at my presentation even when I tak buat lawak. Perhaps they're laughing at me..wtf..takpe..as long as my presentation is over.

On Saturday, my parents celebrated 28 years of wedded bliss and the sister and I bought dinner for them. No pictures on that because I was still recovering from a long day of class..


Except this. Of the brother and I. Why the brother needs to show his watch every time..I don't know -_-

Today (damn Monday), I arrived earlier than usual but later than the actual time work starts. My colleagues were suspiciously quiet and I was anticipating a cockroach on the table. As I sat down, I saw something smack in front of my face


HAHAHAHAHHAHA! Thank you Kak Aida :) Memang drama queen.

I'm in an joyful mood today that I actually have Christmas songs in my head.. :)

But but but, before I end..

If there's just one piece of advice I can give you, it's this - when there's something you really want, fight for it, don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems. And when you've lost hope, ask yourself if 10 years from now, you're gonna wish you gave it just one more shot. because the best things in life, they don't come free. "Grey's Anatomy"

In the hospital

Currently listening to: Back for Good, Take That

"We will never be uncovered again"

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Many of you already know that my father has been in the hospital for the past two weeks already. He's recovering and he'll be out *hopefully* by today.

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So, our daily routine involves visiting him *and making lots of noise* in the hospital every night. It's fun visits ok... because, like I said the last time..hospitals are scary and we laugh to cover up the fear we feel in our hearts =(

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Yesterday, we took pictures like mad. No prizes for guessing whose idea was it to take pictures..hahaha

The sister and I. And the brother hopelessly trying to do some cekap camera trick..

And then he decides to be kurang ajar...

The father is not spared. Nyeh Nyeh Nyeh. Sumore made him tilt his head also..

And the sister...

And me, but my acting fail..wtf..I can only pose one way..

I like this picture because the brother is super cute here... -_-

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And then, my brother surprised me by saying.."Aka, there's a mirror in the bathroom..let's go take pictures.." See, even my brother has been bitten by the taking picture bug..

Ahem, Justin got new watch..*coughcough* Sengaja wanna show his watch..

ELmo!!! My father's guests brought him flowers and an elmo baloon! We all love Elmo don't we?

Mummy, why am I so pendek compared to my younger brother? Tapi takpe..I'm convinced short people are cuter..*consoling consoling*

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And and and, I tak gemuk you know..the picture adds like ten kgs..I swear.. when you see me, you will be like..wtf, so thin this gal, let's feed her cake now!

Okay, the father doesn't look so happy to camwhore here with me. He's prolly tired coz I made them take the picture ten times until I was happy.

See, here my father happy! Prolly cause they only took the picture once and all were happy. Not like me..hmpph

Conclusion, my father was sorta relieved that we left because it reached a point where my brother put music and we were dancing.."Put em up..Put em up.." My mum was begging us to stop because someone from the next room might die of a heartattack listening to the music.

Hopefully, hopefully..my father will be home today. Two weeks is a long time to be in a boring, cold hospital. Pray for my father people..!

TTYL!

Routine

Currently listening to: Fireflies, Owl City

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Today, we analyse songs for fun (and because I lazy to do work wtf?!).

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I heard the song Fireflies by Owl City on the radio and it was love at first..sound. I am inclined to any Jason-Mraz-ish sounding song and this song is gorgeousssss!

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Apparently, the singer who wrote it was insomniac.. and I love vague, ambiguous lyrics that talk in riddles like me.

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I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay

Awake when I'm asleep'

Cause everything is never as it seems

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Next would be Taylor Swift's Fifteen that I heard today morning. One particular line got me thinking..

'cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them

Err..I'm 24 (sic) and when somebody tells me they love me..I believe them pun. Sad sad

Then, when I'm super emo..I listen to Avenged Sevenfold, Blinded in Chains. From Taylor Swift to Avenged Sevenfold..such a biggggg difference!

I'd run away tonight with my mind still intact
I'm gonna make it alright
Easier said than done with no place to hide and having no place to
Running away from condition, I see but you're running away from
Your scared seductive system

Sumpah tak faham these lyrics. Just bob your head up and down and pretend you're into these kinda things.

Although once upon a time, I claim to dislike Hinder's Lips of an Angel..that song kept playing in my playlist and I find myself liking it (slow reaction )

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Scandalous-themed songs are always a joy to listen to -_- You imagine a desperate housewives situation and it's really fun.

The end. Starting work now

TTYL!

Sugar Rush

Currently listening to: 3am, Matchbox 20

"and she only sleeps when its raining"

The perfect cure for an emo soul is.... No wait, this is not yet-another-depressing-post but it is actually a happy one.

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I got up deciding that today is going to be a WTF day. An ultimate WTF day. And sure enough..it was. It included feeling angry, getting scolded by the boss and just..you know..WTF-ish.

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So, in the office, we decided to perk up our spirits by drinking Starbucks for lunch and it was a wrong move. Starbucks and nothing else left us feeling a temporary high that wasn't fit for our working environment.

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THZ started talking non-stop and couldn't pronounce the world adrenaline no matter how many times she tried. I felt the sugar rush go up to my head and started feeling really happy for no reason. I couldn't do my work and my boss told me that there's something really wrong with me.

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I mumbled something about my wisdom tooth growing and a twisted leg and she looked at me weirdly. Of course, the sugar took over and I started laughing.

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See, Paulo Coelho was right. We all have a little madness in us and yet we convince people we're normal. I think I made my madness more apparent. Scary leh? Going from extremely sad to extremely happy and lightheaded. Gopi, of course, has to be the mangsa keadaan and endure random sms-es from me.

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Okay. I'll stop now. Time for work.

:) :)

Growing up

Currently listening to : The TV

Is today lets-trample-on-random-hearts day? I'm not delving into details but I was hit by a revelation which let me very sakit hati. The kinda sakit hati that you literally can feel your heart being painful. I am not usually the one who takes things seriously..but today..I feel like the bottom of someone's shoe. That down. That low.

But but but, I want to see the silver lining. So, here's my silver lining. When people do things to you, it is for a reason. It helps you see things differently..it gives you a better perspective..it really opens up your mind. Maybe, it will hurt and you might shed a tear or two. But in the end..we should always always be glad for things like these..are meant to teach us something.

And like that, I am my own cheerleader.

Walking walking

Currently listening to: Semi-charmed life, Third eye blind

When I'm with you I feel like I could die and it'll be alright

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Blogging while waiting for the boss to be free enough to check my presentation slides. Aih..the wait is worst than the work itself you know.

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Anyways, random:

THZ and I, walking into Forever 21

Me: How much time do we have to play here?

THZ: ...........

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One random morning..

Me: Morning THZ. How are you?

THZ: Not very fine. Can you hear the phlegm in my throat?

Me: .....

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THZ: Are you busy?

Me: Yeah. We play later ok?

THZ: .....

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Conversations with the gopi

Me *singing*: It's a love story, baby just say yes

Gopi: Err..yes?

Me:....

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Random conversations at KLCC

Kasthuri: The fountain got lights ar?

K7: Hahahah..got got

Me: Later, got dolphins also

K7: And sharks!

Me: And if you pay RM 5, you can go snorkeling..

Kasthuri: .....

You're insane and that's why I love you!

Currently listening to: Collide, Howie Day

I found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Over the weekend, we visited my cousin and his wife who gave birth to twins!! Twins are not uncommon in my family and we were all pretty excited as this is the first pair of female-male twins.

Cute o not? I stole this picture from my cousin's facebook. Super cute. The boy is right..in case you cannot tell..

These twins are actually Devona's siblings. But Devona, being the drama queen that she is..is acting nonchalant about the whole twins affair!



My nephew Carl..who is a Chindian but looks more Indian and is confused when we ask him if he's Indian or Chinese. Hahahahha..


And since the twins were either crying or drinking milk, I told the children a story *which they made me repeat six times after that wtf*


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Then on Sunday, guess who was in town? Okay, I know this game is very pathetic already because Gopi keeps coming down every weekend and there's no point in asking to guess who was in town. I'll stop

But yes, the Gopinathan who is incapable of taking any decent pictures because as he said.."no need to take pictures of everything can or not?". So, when I force him too..he retaliates by giving the most ugly face.

And on and on, he refuses to take any nice pictures with me..with reasons ranging from being tired to hungry or sleepy.

Obviously, the Gopi cannot understand my fixation with pictures. Obviously even I don't understand my fixation with pictures. There's just something lah..

I peeped when Gopi was going through his call list ( no no, i'm not some sick gf who goes thru his call list and messages..ahem) and I saw that my name was 'Honey Dew'. Ah, very bery cute :)

It's okay if he doesn't want to take pictures. That's not going to stop me!! *_*

Thank you teman hatiku. For putting up with my erratic ways like coming late..forcing you to drive..talking at 100km/j non-stop..singing along to the radio..complaining about the multitude at the shopping complex..acting cute (wtf) etc etc. You are truly..better than the best :)

Random:

The brother and I in a picture where I have a zit the size of Sri Lanka on my chin. See, I am capable of posting up ugly pictures every so often. Don't complain then..

The brother has two lines on his head. I was shocked when I saw it..but I shall refrain myself from making any ahem *racist* remarks.

TTYL!

The perfect date

Currently listening to: You belong to me, Taylor Swift
"Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you? Been here all along, so why can't you see?"

I'm blogging live on a date! And man, I tell you..this date ain't like the ordinary ones I go on with Gopi. Memang boom boom pow punya date okay..

For starters, I am allowed to wear shorts and a ragged tshirt, my hair tied in a sloppy bun, hair pushed back with a hair band and the best part..there's no need for powder or mascara..eyeliner and all them' memalaskan nonsense.

This date doesn't require intelligent conversations, or the need to be manja and neither does it need to be fed. It just needs my fingers. That's all. I mean, where else can you find a date like this one?

Some more can sing boom boom pow loudly and do weird dance pun this date tak kisah. As long as my fingers are working hard.

Okay wtf..i'm taking about my assignment and I'm feeling utterly depressed because it seems never ending and in order to pacify myself, I'm convincing myself it's a date. A date that needs my fingers to type out the answers non-stop.

Okay, back to work now. Will.i.am drop the beat now..-_-

Are you happy? Are you happy?

Currently listening to: Shania Twain, Get you good
I'm only interested if I can have you for life

I wrote an entire post about how un-emo I am today only to have blogger go crazy and delete it. See..how to be un-emo like this? How to be happy clappy?

My colleague was telling me the other day how if he gives up everything one day it will be because of this song, Chasing Cars by Snow Petrol. I couldn't help but agree. I feel the same way about this song. It has the same effect on me as does Viva La Vida by Coldplay.

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things
Will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world?

Unfortunately, I am a hopeless romantic at heart and I know there's not a single person here that would not think I'm totally insane if I tell them to "waste time..chasing cars..in our head". So takpe, I shall chase cars by myself -_-

TTYL

Paint my love

I am not the eyeliner-wearing-emo-singing-child today. Not that I normally wear eyeliner or sing but speaking of which..I was in class one day when my classmate was shocked to see me take out a pink phone. She said, "Cheryl, it doesn't match you. You're the eyeliner-wearing-Alanis Morisette-listening-emo-girl. You need a black phone". I was shocked. Obviously, she didn't know me well enough to realise what a pink soul I have :)

I like colours okay. I prefer my clothes to be in black or white..but colours are okay..really..

Pink stationary? THZ's actually. She lined it up for me to snap a picture..

Random orange heart in the office. Random heart. I like the sound of that.

Colourful skirts ala Blake Lively from Gossip Girl XoXo

Err..no colour here..just my black and white dress against one from Forever 21 which THZ claimed to be much nicer than mine. I agree, unfortunately :(

Polka dot wallet. I liked this wallet and Dayana liked it too. And we decided to buy it although our friends think it's too childish and too un-professional.

But, it doesn't matter lah. I'm already walking into big meetings with a paris hilton bag and gold hairbands..what does a red wallet matter anyway?

Thank you for believing in my capabilities. From CNN to a book. :) Sumpah terharu and will remember you..if..any of it comes true :)

And now, the end is near

Currently listening to: BEP, Boom Boom Pow

I'm so 3008, you're so 2000 and late

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I arrived later than my usual late today. I blame it on the night. I was tossing and turning the whole night, the sub-conscious mind wide awake but the body fast asleep and for most parts of the nights, I stared at the ceiling. I know, I'm starting to sound all dark and twisty..but I promise you..this 'dark and twisty' thing is just a phase.

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But surprisingly, I'm so wide awake now..I am planning on doing some real hardcore writing. Not those mini-mini articles, but I'll start writing for some of my bigger projects. Yes! Super-semangat today -_-

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The boyfriend worked the whole night through. Such a pekerja cemerlang unlike his Fail girlfriend.

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Next Tuesday will mark ONE YEAR of me working in Genting. One year baybeh! I didn't think I could survive one year..since knowing my threshold is usually about six months. But, it's a good sign kan?

TTYL!

Staying true

My faith in humanity has been restored!!

You know how sometimes friends tell you that you've been very kind to them and how they'll repay your kindness? You know how sometimes you don't really want your kindness returned because you did it out of friendship and pure affection for the person?

Today, Dayana randomly showed up at my office to give me a Christmas decoration she bought for me.

I was touched beyond words. Here's somebody who doesn't owe me anything yet generously surprises me with her random acts of kindness. Buying coffee, hair clips and now..christmas decorations. I am so terharu sayang. Sangat terharu!

I'm not saying I want repayment for things I've done for people..I'm just saying that just when you thought there's no longer hope for the selfish human race and the story on 2012 might just be true because the selfish people deserve to die..you find someone who restores if for you.

Saying thank you seems inadequate. But thank you. Truly, you're something else.

Nanti saya belanja Starbucks ok sayang?!

Meredith: We enter the world alone and we leave it alone. And everything that happens in between, we owe it to our self to find a little company. We need help. We need support. Otherwise we’re in it by our self. Strangers, cut off from each other and we forget just how connect we all are. So instead we choose love. We choose life and for a moment we feel just a little bit less alone

The need to declutter

Currently listening to: The Offspring, Kristy are you doing okay?

"Don't waste your whole life trying, to get back what was taken away"

I came to the office only to be greeted by my messy desk and the colleague's theory of how the Viva is the bas*ard child of an Avanza and a Kelisa. But my desk..it was as cluttered as my mind.

I sat obsessively for one hour, listening to Alanis Morrisette and cleaning up the rubbish I've accumulated. Stacks of unused papers, notes, coins, staplers, pictures, receipts..you get my drift. I cleared and cleared and now with more room for my arm on the table, I am confident I will be able to do better work (Chewah..)

We need to declutter every so often. To clean up the folders on our table and also in our minds. To throw away the unused papers on the table and unworthy memories in our head. To neatly arrange our stationery on the table and the emotions running in our head.

So what if it will all get messy again tomorrow? At least we decluttered today.

Sometimes, I talk in riddles. For the most part of my life, I am busy convincing people that I am as normal as you see.

The angst-ridden teen in me is acting up again.

Happy what?

Listening to: More than love, Los Lonely Boys

"We were in love before, but now it's so much more"

Currently reading: Still marketing strategy & Rules for Writers :(

I cannot exactly pinpoint the exact juncture of my life when I turned into a pessimistic, jaded, sadist. You know, the one who rolls her eyes at every hint of optimism, the one who doesn't believe in anything, the one who thinks the world is a big, fat practical joke.

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I feel like a angst-ridden teen who just lost a cat.

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Make me watch a Disney movie now and I'll write for you a thesis on why these movies are fake and how 'happily ever after' is nothing but an illusion.

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I mean, the real happy ending is the one in Grey's Anatomy! (You knew that was coming, didn't you)

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Forget the Disney crap about the prince finding the princess and the frog turning into a prince. This is the true fairy tale people!!

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Derek: If there is a crises you don't freeze, you move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse, you've survived worse, and you know we will survive too. It's not a flaw, its a strength, it makes you who you are. I'm not gonna get down on one knee, I am not gonna ask a question. I love u meredith grey and I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

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Meredith: and I want to spend the rest of my life with you

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THZ is feeding my addiction by urging me to join a group on Facebook where you have like endless quotes on Grey's Anatomy. Takut aku. Being addicted is a bad thing you know..

Ok..last one. No more Grey's Anatomy after this.

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Derek: Look we can do this in other day

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Meredith: There is no other day, every day is like this, every day there is a crises, there is no time

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Derek: Meredith

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Meredith: I love you, and I do want to marry you today, but there is no time

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Derek: You have a piece of paper?

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Meredith: For what?

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Derek: I wanna be with you forever and you wanna be with me forever. And in order to do that we need to make vows, a commitment, a contract. give me a piece of paper

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Meredith: i dont, i..i..i..i dont, i have post-its

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Derek: Ok, what we wanna promise each other?

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Meredith: That u will love me even when u hate me

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Derek: To love each other even when we hate each other. No running, nobody walks out no matter what happens. what else?

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Meredith: That we will take care of each other even when we are old and smelly and senile and if I get Alzheimer and forget u

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Derek: I will remind you who iIam everyday, so take when we are old and senile, smelly.This is forever

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Meredith: This is our wedding, a post-it

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Derek: Uhhh, if u sign it

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Meredith: Now what?

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Derek: Now, I kiss the bride

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Meredith: Married

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Derek: Married

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ROMANTIC OR NOT????!! WHY SO ROMANTIC LIKE THIS? WHY WE DON'T HAVE THIS KINDA ROMANCE IN OUR COUNTRY? WHY? WHY OUR WEDDINGS SO LONG AND COMPLICATED. I WANT POST-IT WEDDING PUN!!!

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I stop now. Tomorrow, I shall write about something intelligent

Wedding (Part 2)

We took lots of pictures during the temple and the church wedding but my cousin screamed and yelled at me when I told her I want to upload them. She told me I am only to upload a selected number of pictures..bah..

Here's one of my cousin holding the coconut..which she dubbed 'baby' the whole day through

Here's one with her bridesmaid. My sister yang tersayang

While Abi was performing certain rituals in the temple, the bride was confined to this room and we took full advantage of the mirror there to take pictures.


Devona and I. The drama queen in the making. So cute

She got tired halfway through the ceremony and oh-so-cutely sat behind Abi and Vani. Within minutes, she was carried away because the others wanted to stand behind them.

The newlyweds sharing a light moment.

And the joys of marriage is one hard to comprehend. :)